An Eventful Year

This is one year that has made me think of what I and my family has been through, between family counseling, losing our home of 9 years and moving not once but three times in one year would make any parent lose his or her minds. Not to mention a cat in tow that some how survived the moves, it's amazing how little time is spent wondering how long this will last or what each day may bring.

I'm looking forward towards a future of good health, peace, and love for the next year. I'm done worrying about my job it is there for any one's taking; it is not my place to stress over the small stuff but to look at what I have achieved and what I'm achieving for my future. It's not about me it's about learning to let go, it is knowing friends and family that makes a person feel secure, it is knowing how far I have traveled.

It's about counting blessings every day no matter how bad of a day I'm having it's nice to come home and be loved by my boy's, it is learning to cope with one bad move to a more pleasant spacious house that I'm slowly making into a home, three stories is enough for us. Four bathrooms, four bedrooms one I've turned into an office and guest room, it's affordable and the floors are actually even.

thousand twenty-six is what we are paying it's the best we can do on a tight budget, we have struggled before and we will continue this struggle until the govenator is out office, I'm not sure if I'm voting this year, everyone wants state workers to take more furlough days which means another $100.00 from my husband. It's gotten to the point if we could move it would be to another state, but for now we are ridding out the storm.

We look forward to bringing C home for good in mid May late June, he will continue to his social services through Sac county, we have decided to return him to Spectrum where he was before his transfer to San Leandro. It's the best we can do for all of us at the moment; his outburst have diminished except when C does not get his way, we don't have to restrain C, or give him any meds he is doing exceptionally well in controlling his anger.

Although there is not many kids C can play with, it's not easy when he's away most of the time except on the weekends; I don't have to make as many trips to Castro Valley or to San Leandro, after our vacation over the summer we talked with C's therapist and explained our situation they found a way of picking up C on Sunday's and I pick him up on Friday's after work.

Ch received a call from his mother not about a month ago, she and her siblings took the keys away from Ch's grandmother, and the car was given to us. My prayer was answered, we needed another automobile since Ch will be selling his Toyota, to pay not one computer but for two, my laptop is slowly dying, we took it to best buy, the guy said it either has a virus or the motherboard is about to give up. I'm praying earnestly my laptop will last me until I get my home work accomplished in the next few days, we can not borrow any money from my father he moved to Mexico a month ago.

My mother-in-law lent us money we have to pay her back for getting us into a house that is basically falling off it's foundation and no insulation, the house has furnace and no one bothered to install smoke detectors or fix leaky faucets so we moved out, the day after Christmas. Thankfully it was month to month rent. Other wise we would not be able to move, I'm praying we get our deposit back; that will help.

For now this is all I'm going to write, I know it's not much for me it's enough; life may have thrown me a few curve balls at least I have my spirit of a fighter. I don't plan to give up but only to move forward in the coming year.

May you all have a Happy New Year!

In Memory Of J.L.

As of 10:00 a.m. pacific time my best friend Linda lost her husband to brain cancer, I was there until 1:00 a.m. this morning arrived home at 1:30 a.m. got a few hours sleep after hitting the snooze button a few times.

I have cried but not in front of Linda she needed me to be strong for her, her family is grateful for a friend like me, J.L. is now resting with the Lord; I did give him his last massage last night after I worked on Linda and her daughter who was the verge of having a panic attack.

I went over there after receiving a phone call from one of her cousins to come that J.L. had passed. The family Christmas tree will not be turned on until I feel I'm ready to have it lit, as I'm not in the holiday spirit although I did pick up a gift for a needy child, I'm not ready to celebrate the birth of our savior.

Please bare with me as I'm in grieving for the loss of a client and a friends husband.

I leave you with this:

Live from the Center is a life of unhurried

peace, and power. It is simple. It is serene....

We need not to get frantic. He is at the helm.

And when our little day is done we lie down

quietly in peace, for all is well.

Thomas Kelly