It's about time that I start blogging again I've stopped a few years back working full time, events in my life also changed; I've also put my marriage in a not so healthy place. And this year most individuals either have lost their jobs, moral is down and couples are finding themselves in places they don't want to be in.
The last post I had posted was on CH's blog telling everyone that I was happy, our marriage was in a good place, I was finally employed after being employed in various jobs. Not knowing there would be changes and circumstances that would have me evaluating my entire life. Nor did I stop to think if life could throw us curve balls which it has. We are a couple with no kids both have been out of the house for a quite a few years.
The way I've altered my marriage was in way's that some should think twice about doing, for any one out there who is going through or went through what I'm about to tell you. For those who really know me it's not easy to even tell you, I was sexting another man one who just randomly showed up out of the blue.
There are many questions you have some of you will wonder how long have you been at this? Almost a year. Or how long have you been married 26 1/2 years. I've been married some good years some not so good years; here we are working through this mess I have made.
I've broken CH's trust I don't know how or whether or not it will be repaired, and yes we are both seeing different counselor's. Getting back to this issue that has caused a rift in our marriage it's been a month since Ch had found out that I was sexting with someone I haven't come up with a name yet as many of you know I keep every one's identity hidden. As many times I say I'm sorry, we've talked since it's all of this has happened CH has given details of what I was doing.
It started out innocent, we were just talking to me it wasn't a big deal he would call me on my way to work. He got my number off of my face book page, he started texting me wanted to know if this was the right person, I texted back told him yes it was the person he was looking for. To me it was just talking I have a lot of guy friends some are married some who are still single; their like my brother's to me.
Some of you are thinking why would you have guy friends you have a husband? Here's the thing I have always had guy friends since high school we don't always talk on a daily bases we see each other when I go home for a visit or high school class reunion's. I don't bring my hubby he doesn't like big crowds I'm a social butterfly he isn't.
I'm the one other's come to when they're going through a rough spot, none of them would do what I've done; none would even think that I would do such a terrible thing. I sent naked pictures to Steve (not his real name) the should've and the would've will not change any thing, doesn't change how CH is feeling he's not happy for what I did. He's back on anti depressant's, he can't trust me I know this at the same time he still loves me.
We are taking things one day at a time we're working on this there are many more posts to come I've spent most of the morning on this post. There is more I need to share with anyone, if you are a guy or gal who has stumbled on my blog looking to see if there is someone who has done exactly what I've done. Or your one of those who has this happen to them feel free to leave a comment I'll answer the best that I can.
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