Even The Strongest Cries

I've kind of taken some time off from writing, not really telling anyone...having so much going on. I needed to recharge, I've had a few bad days with the boys. J got into some hot boiling water that needed my attention. We have gotten it all straightened out, it did cause him to lose a privilege to see one of his teachers at the elementary school that C was attending. I have to figure out who can watch J while I and CH are working. I'm paying $24.00 for C to be at a after school program, and having J to attend one as well, would be putting us over the edge. Lately I have been sent home or called not to come in due to business being very slow, which in turn has hurt my paycheck. I'm still looking for a new job, and not just anything. I did find one they want a p/t massage therapist, I'm not sure how it would work with my other job that I'm currently with. Right now weekends are out of the question, as for nights; I've had my fair share of wanting to fall asleep at the wheel. I'm not ready to give up on looking for a good job, I know right now it's not the best time of the year either.

I've cried my eyes out, dried my tears, stood taller, stronger, and started searching for a better job. And with the next holiday coming up less than a week to go. I'm still in the rut of not getting CH anything for Christmas and the same with him getting anything for me. At least we have each other, family and friends. Almost plenty of cookies, to give away. I still have one more batch of Chocolate Cookies to make, and Ch has one more that he needs to bake as well. I'm still attending my bible study class, and taking a parenting class on Thursday nights we have a few of these classes left. Ch will be back to attend his men's group, so far the parenting class has helped and has said everything we do seems to be working. Taking C to the garage having, him scream his lungs until he's ready to do what we need him to do.

I even received C's report card last week, he's come along way. There is a program that I haven't had a chance to read up on, the group is called Advanced Kids they help with kids with temper tantrums, in the classroom. C isn't quite ready to venture out into the regular classroom just yet due to his temper and as for going out side and have free time play, he tends to run off. So he's still with someone that watches C very closely. C is at basic level, in most of his school work there is still a few quirks that need to be dealt with, other than that C is doing real well. J has finally gotten an aid to work with him, on some of his subjects that he struggles with, so far I haven't had any more detentions sent home from his teacher. Even though J has an aid that works with him, I still ask if he has any home work to do. He knows I will be on him about doing his homework. Which is a plus for the both of, he understands that home work means that it's part of his grade and turning it in on time has been an issue for him.

It's been close to three weeks since my last post, some of it was also due to having so much going on. My family along with few others, had asked if I wouldn't mind helping decorate the church in the early afternoon, I told K that I would bring Ch along she said that would be great! we don't have a lot of tall guys to help out. Most are busy with family functions and are not able to help with the decorating. As one of the teachers was putting up the Nativity scene, C comes along and asked what she was setting up? So here's conversation that happened between the two:

C: Is that a play set?

Mrs. R: no it's a Nativity scene that I'm putting together.

C: An activity scene.

Mrs. R: No an Nativity scene of night when Baby Jesus was born.

C: there seems to be a lot of activity going on around the baby Jesus.

By the last sentence C runs off to help with decorating a tree that I and Ch have put together, and having the boys help put on the ornaments on the tree. Mrs. R comes up to and asked if C has ever seen an Nativity scene? I said I would like to get one, we have no room for one yet, we have no place for one. I said why? She explains to me what he had said, and we both had to stop and think, you know C was on to something that day. God had a lot of activity going on that night. C has also mentioned to me that Pastor was not there, his wife was there just to see if we needed anything? C tells us at dinner that same night that he would like to become a pastor, just like Pastor B. Because I like pastor B.


As I'm rapping this up, I've noticed it's two weeks before Christmas not get any one's feathers in an uproar. I'm really, really behind in my postings, I'll try to post again. Well see.