Life is like a box of chocolates,
you never know what your going to
get -Forrest Gump
That's exactly what I'm feeling, and at times..In the past few days I've felt overwhelmed. Mainly it's my work it's the other job that I've taken on, which by the way wasn't really in my plan of working at another food place. Even though I get the chance to meet some of the residents, it's not exactly what I really wanted to do in my free time. By the looks of my last paycheck I have no other choice, except take what I can settle for. Unless you have a spirit like mine that can't be broken, only to made stronger, that is what I have done this week. I really didn't want everyone to know that things on the financial front has somewhat taken a slight nose dive. I have watched how much we spend, watching the weather reports to make sure I don't over use the power. I love my family very much, working so close to home has it's up sides and it's down sides. The up side I don't have far to travel I'm close to home when things go haywire I'm here to fix it. The down side is I'm not getting the work that I need to get ahead, instead I have fallen way below where I was a year ago, not a good thing. So how in the hell am I going to get out of this mess? Very easy Ch asked if I could refill his allergy meds I said sure not a problem called work nothing. You mean to tell me I have nothing! No clients another week of no freaken work! Of cores I didn't say that to the receptionist that was working the front desk. I'll call you if we need you. This is getting pretty old. By now I would have thought okay they know we are here when they need us, but damn it I've got a family and bills to think about. I have no time to sit here week after week waiting for them to book me clients. After a little chit chat I said good bye, told the receptionist they could reach me by my cell phone if they need me.
After filling the prescription I went over to my school where I graduated from asked to speak with the guidance counselor or whoever was in charged of placing us C.M.T's for work. I talked to her for few mins. She asked if I had a resume I said you gals should have that on file we're sorry but we seemed to have a new system and we no longer keep it. Mind you I'm pretty much in a spot were I can say damn if I do and damn if I don't! After a half tank of gas and one revised resume later I'm pretty much looking for another damn job. A decent paying one so I can dig us out of a hole that's barely starting. And to be honest I don't have much time left to do so. After talking with another lady that handles all the new comers she pulled up a place that I've read about, gave me the list I called them yesterday, and an interview in the works with that place. (always trust your gut feelings), Why? It just so happened I went to my first interview at a chiropractor office 45 minutes away from home not bad. The pay isn't bad either $20.00 an hour on call and if you don't have anything you still get paid I was floored. Not only do they get a nice check, the C.M.T.'s that I met this evening were taking home bottled wine from the clients! Now that's something you don't see every day. They are to call me back, set up a time so I can go back and do a practice massage, just to see how she likes me. It's a start in the right direction. I had another lead it's on the military base not far from here I'm not sure if I even want to attempt doing that one. Another on call, I'm already doing that and I haven't gotten only a few. So in the meantime I'm doing a lot of praying. For the right job to come along.
As for the second phone call that I made this week. They are due to open around the 1st of August, I'm sure I can handle that. The receptionist of that place will be calling me around July 10th to set up an interview. So which job am I going to take? I really don't know I like working with no shoes on only socks we'll see how all this will work out of cores I've got more hours than a few of his massage therapist he's got there. I told him that's what my school had required that you have, I didn't tell him it's in case a student would like to move we have more than what that most states require. I'm so not good at interviews, I either get nervous or I'm falling over my words, and no money to go back to school on. Which sucks!
I'm surprised I haven't sat down and cried my eyes out over this whole situation. I've done the first few steps:
1). Realizing that I'm not going to get ahead if I stay here, and taking a lesser paying job than I'm worth.
2). Taking a risk of finding another job, and putting the trust back into the school which is going down hill. Even though they have made a few changes.
3). Having them revise my resume, they did a pretty good job on it. And having them do all the work and I call them or check my email to see if there is any leads.
4). Last but not least, not turning down an interview even though I'm a little rusty. The place that I did interview said they are looking for someone who is pleasant and people friendly. Hum sounds like yours truly, now if they will just call back and set the rest of the interview up I'm good to go.
As you can see it's not easy, I really had no idea that I've carried this around for a while. It's a wonder I haven't lost my will of praying for something good to happen. I really had thought I had found the right place, the right type of work. At least this job gave me the opportunity to see if I like being on call, which by the way I don't so I know that will not work for me. It would have worked if they had kept me busy enough to stay, I'm sure there will be more doors to open, more opportunities out there I've just got to find them. We had meeting last night and it seems to me that the front desk isn't doing their job in making sure the clients are paying for their massages. Not something I really wanted to hear, so now I've got to make sure they have paid for their massage before I accept them. The other parts of the meeting, if I'm lucky they will actually tell me what is bothering them. That way I know which areas to work on. It works both ways in this type of work, I cannot guarantee if they will remember the next time around.
So in the meantime I'm keeping, high spirits by spending my free time reading books and knowing that I've got someone watching over me, at every hour of every day. I'm also playing the role of being a stay at home mom. Hopefully this role will not last long. Because yesterday CH came home and jokingly said {well it must be nice working in a air conditioned building} knowing all too well that I haven't been working much. I was hurt and felt a stab of wanting to lash out at him. I kept the bad words at bay. Don't ask me how? I didn't just let him have it, I think it was partly it's been hot here and I really was in no mood to be joked with. And since with very little work I've been keeping the fans going 24/7 so I don't raise our power bill up any more than it has been. And for the comment he did make he did say he was sorry, and hugged me. I still wanted to say something mean, but decided against it. I've really earned my patience back and IT'S ABOUT TIME I GET THAT PART OF ME BACK!
There you have it a post I really didn't want no one to know is finally up and running and it's taken me five tries to get it right. That's why there is no title couldn't come up with one.
Friday, June 30, 2006
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Taking on Another Job
Okay so maybe taking on another, job is not something I should have done. And since we do need the money, so we can take the kids places is not such a bad idea. Right? Now that I'm looking at from another view, I'm going to be losing time with the family every damn weekend, if I'm lucky to have a client on a Saturday morning. Not the smartest thing to do. As it is my check engine light came on yesterday, Oh great! Bad and good the good news is it won't be able to pass smog next year or whenever it is due. The bad news is the Cadillac converter is going out in the damn thing. Just lovely!! It's been bad enough finding that life can bring a person down to a giant stress level. And thankfully I haven't turned to food for comfort, then I would really be in BIG trouble. I'm not looking forward into working two jobs I'm concerted it might get in the way of my regular work, I'm just trying this out for a few weeks to see if I can handle it. I'll be working in a cafe helping with food prep and serving customers, I don't know if I will like it and if I will actually stay on as her employee.
Sat. Night
As CH had stated we would be going to the Crawdad festival on the delta, which we did this evening after dropping the kids off at his parents house. It's a good thing they are spending the night there, CH got really wasted eventhough his doc. Warned him not to drink while on his meds for depression, we had walked for a while to see what kind of vendors they had there. One of youngsters teachers was out with her little boy, she invited us to her house to drink, talk or play card games, or to talk which I and her did. This is my second late night more on what I did on Friday as soon as I'm done with this one, and no it's nothing bad and it was a lot of fun. By the way get your minds out of the gutter! Back to tonight, CH didn't want me walk by myself to my suv, so I and youngsters teacher walk with me we talked and as we got back to her place, CH in no condition to drive, it's a good thing I don't drink and I do all the driving when where out like this. I promised him I won't pick on him too much, lets just say he's got a lot of cleaning to do tomorrow after he starts to feel better. I won't be driving my suv to church in the morning lets just say it's very, gross smelling on the inside and out.
So on that note I think, I better go and check on him to make sure he's feeling okay. He says he needs to stop doing things like this, Why is it that guys always say, that they won't get drunk when there's an event going on, and then turn around and do it any way? Is it me or am I the only one that doesn't understand drinking? For me I like being the one that drives other home, that way I can choose the music.
Sat. Night
As CH had stated we would be going to the Crawdad festival on the delta, which we did this evening after dropping the kids off at his parents house. It's a good thing they are spending the night there, CH got really wasted eventhough his doc. Warned him not to drink while on his meds for depression, we had walked for a while to see what kind of vendors they had there. One of youngsters teachers was out with her little boy, she invited us to her house to drink, talk or play card games, or to talk which I and her did. This is my second late night more on what I did on Friday as soon as I'm done with this one, and no it's nothing bad and it was a lot of fun. By the way get your minds out of the gutter! Back to tonight, CH didn't want me walk by myself to my suv, so I and youngsters teacher walk with me we talked and as we got back to her place, CH in no condition to drive, it's a good thing I don't drink and I do all the driving when where out like this. I promised him I won't pick on him too much, lets just say he's got a lot of cleaning to do tomorrow after he starts to feel better. I won't be driving my suv to church in the morning lets just say it's very, gross smelling on the inside and out.
So on that note I think, I better go and check on him to make sure he's feeling okay. He says he needs to stop doing things like this, Why is it that guys always say, that they won't get drunk when there's an event going on, and then turn around and do it any way? Is it me or am I the only one that doesn't understand drinking? For me I like being the one that drives other home, that way I can choose the music.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
It's In My Favor!
Yes! I should be shouting for joy, thanking the good Lord up above. For the work that went into this meeting. I can honestly say the education that was suppose to happen this past year, will be met next year. I met his teacher for next year, there is going to be changes made for August. There will be no sending youngster home, there will be a teacher by his side, out of view if he gets out of hand they will have other options in place. A teacher that can take him out of the room if he cannot handle himself, or if it's too much for him to handle. I went as far as drilling the teacher, making sure that he knew what he was getting himself into.
I'm not taking chances with this school, eventhough I know the special ed teacher and the principle since my oldest had attended this school. The rules of IEP's change rapidly even if, they are to follow it exactly how it's written up. In this case both teachers, that were there at the meeting are to go through a special training since they are having a few kids with special needs coming in. I'm pretty sure that I surprised the special ed teacher I'll call her Sarah (not her real name). She had oldest the last two years, before he was sent to a different school.
I don't think she knew I would come in very strongly, knowing the hell I've been through trying to get youngster the help he needs. I held every foul word back, it's either they were going to make sure the help was going to be provided or find a school that could. They didn't like that idea very well, and I didn't care they should have thought about it before we started having problems.
Their tests that the school had me fill out, claimed that youngest has depression. According to those around him, he's not depressed he's a boy, with different needs than a regular child that doesn't need any help with any thing. Now figure out how the hell your going to teach a child that has a great memory, yet has difficult in fine motor skills. At least this time around I'm not pulling my hair out, and of cores I was about to leave if they didn't come through for us. Other tests showed he has adult adhd, others showed us he's got signs of aspergers, and I can't wait to see how our meeting with the regional Center goes. I just love it when someone tells me one thing and then you've got another telling me it's something else. I give up!
After the meeting the principle said to me, your not dealing with the preschool and we've got a pretty good team here, give us a try? Well you know she's got a point there, two lousy years with one school, doesn't mean it could get any worse.
We'll have to see, I'm not holding my breath, for anyone. Which means school visits on my part, every once in a while just to see how he is doing. I'm not counting on any one giving us any more grief, The best thing everyone can do for us is making sure that their job is helping us making sure that youngster will be getting the work that he needs for his learning. If I could I would home school him, there are too many distractions for him here. And I'm not able to give him that kind of schooling, I'll leave it that to the brighter ones.
I have worked on this post since Monday evening, and think I pretty much put everything that went on at the meeting here if not, I'm not coming back and typing it again. I've got some stuff to do, both of my boys were fighting so I already know what my summer is going to be like. Lord I really do need more work.
I'm not taking chances with this school, eventhough I know the special ed teacher and the principle since my oldest had attended this school. The rules of IEP's change rapidly even if, they are to follow it exactly how it's written up. In this case both teachers, that were there at the meeting are to go through a special training since they are having a few kids with special needs coming in. I'm pretty sure that I surprised the special ed teacher I'll call her Sarah (not her real name). She had oldest the last two years, before he was sent to a different school.
I don't think she knew I would come in very strongly, knowing the hell I've been through trying to get youngster the help he needs. I held every foul word back, it's either they were going to make sure the help was going to be provided or find a school that could. They didn't like that idea very well, and I didn't care they should have thought about it before we started having problems.
Their tests that the school had me fill out, claimed that youngest has depression. According to those around him, he's not depressed he's a boy, with different needs than a regular child that doesn't need any help with any thing. Now figure out how the hell your going to teach a child that has a great memory, yet has difficult in fine motor skills. At least this time around I'm not pulling my hair out, and of cores I was about to leave if they didn't come through for us. Other tests showed he has adult adhd, others showed us he's got signs of aspergers, and I can't wait to see how our meeting with the regional Center goes. I just love it when someone tells me one thing and then you've got another telling me it's something else. I give up!
After the meeting the principle said to me, your not dealing with the preschool and we've got a pretty good team here, give us a try? Well you know she's got a point there, two lousy years with one school, doesn't mean it could get any worse.
We'll have to see, I'm not holding my breath, for anyone. Which means school visits on my part, every once in a while just to see how he is doing. I'm not counting on any one giving us any more grief, The best thing everyone can do for us is making sure that their job is helping us making sure that youngster will be getting the work that he needs for his learning. If I could I would home school him, there are too many distractions for him here. And I'm not able to give him that kind of schooling, I'll leave it that to the brighter ones.
I have worked on this post since Monday evening, and think I pretty much put everything that went on at the meeting here if not, I'm not coming back and typing it again. I've got some stuff to do, both of my boys were fighting so I already know what my summer is going to be like. Lord I really do need more work.
Friday, June 09, 2006
Canceled Again
Friday June 9
How many times would you take, if you had a meeting that has been postponed three times. How many of you would say that's enough move my child and find another school ASPI! Yes it has happened again and I let the teacher know this is the last straw I'm taking from this fucking school district! As I'm picking up my son from school she told me that the kids from the special ed, have already been placed in the classes for school in two months. Oh really! Why the hell are they even doing that without us meeting the freaken teachers for next year! Or the fact that they had said there is no way that they were to pick a teacher. If it makes matters worse it was the main branch of the school that canceled this appoint. Until tues. at 3:00 pm, which is a bunch of bull shit! As far as I'm concerned they can take their special classes and shove it where the sun don't shine!
Yes I'm just a little pissed off, (and sorry for the foul moth). It's not easy when you've got a school district, not wanting to help you. And the fact that they are already have enough trouble, with a lawsuit hovering over their heads. I'm about to give them a run for their money, and it's not going to be pretty. I have two choices
1. I could call the districts main office in Sac.
2. Find a advocate to come to the meetings which in my case, is a little too late for that. With that I'm on my own; My only alternative is write them a letter of complaint, asking them to remove my son and finding a school if they don't comply then I will go straight to the top. They have done us wrong for too fucking long and now it's time to either face your mistakes and pay the price. Or as I have said before find him a new school, that will help him more than this one will.
As for youngster going to summer school, it's up in the air again. And it's their fault they know he needs the extra help, they know from the last meeting that they needed to do something. And I get this another, missed meeting because they couldn't get their dates straight. How the hell would they feel, if I didn't show up at those meetings? I'm sure that they wouldn't be happy. I'm sure they would have someone knocking on my door asking me why I haven't attended a meeting with the school. At this time boycotting this meeting is not an option I'm willing to take, at the moment. In all honesty if they cared about my kid then, they shouldn't have left a message on youngsters teachers phone and canceling that morning, knowing all too well it has not been an easy road for us.
Saturday June 10,
One of my favorite things about my job, is I get involved with different activities that they have once in a while. This time is was a 5k walk/run, we had a good turn out we had a few that went home, the weather could have been a little warmer. At least the sun was out, the wind was blowing. And the golfers weren't out at 8:00 a.m. we had full access to the golf course, I got there a little late so both gals that do fitness work were just about done. They had filled me in on the mornings events. They had borrowed a golf cart for the mornings event, which in turn two of the guy's were running after them. Stop you can't take that! As both of them said we work here we'll bring it back as soon as we are done with it. Which we did after picking up the markers that we had used, it was a good day. So what time was the gals there? 5:30 in the morning. I got there about 6:45a.m. I couldn't get moving. At least we had a good time. Exchanged some good laughs and enjoyed the morning.
Sunday June 11,
My usual routine got up for church, had a good morning of sleeping in until 7:30 which is unusual for me. As the morning wore on I found out why the two had canceled the meeting, one was sick the other her mom was in the hospital having surgery. Now I feel really bad, because of the way I just ripped into the school dist. Then I found out who youngest teacher will be a male, that I've never met before. All I know is there better be no backing out of this meeting on Tuesday, as it is they are going to be some words and a lot of not trusting on my part. And maybe a promotion on ch's if the good lord willing, that will mean a possible job transfer. God forbid in the L.A. area, we'll just have to wait and see.
All in all it's been a busy weekend, for the most part it's nice to have a place to vent. And I feel that I've done wrong for getting mad and not knowing all the details. Then again it's one of those areas, where you don't know what to do. Sure I'm displeased with myself, but I know in my heart that there is nothing I can do. Of course the teacher that I talked to, this morning said it's a shame they couldn't say anything the night before. I told her to have a nice week and I would see her on Tuesday at 3:00pm. Not a word did I say that I was planning on having a written report with me, and what I think the school should do. I've spent the last three days on this post. May you all have a good week.
How many times would you take, if you had a meeting that has been postponed three times. How many of you would say that's enough move my child and find another school ASPI! Yes it has happened again and I let the teacher know this is the last straw I'm taking from this fucking school district! As I'm picking up my son from school she told me that the kids from the special ed, have already been placed in the classes for school in two months. Oh really! Why the hell are they even doing that without us meeting the freaken teachers for next year! Or the fact that they had said there is no way that they were to pick a teacher. If it makes matters worse it was the main branch of the school that canceled this appoint. Until tues. at 3:00 pm, which is a bunch of bull shit! As far as I'm concerned they can take their special classes and shove it where the sun don't shine!
Yes I'm just a little pissed off, (and sorry for the foul moth). It's not easy when you've got a school district, not wanting to help you. And the fact that they are already have enough trouble, with a lawsuit hovering over their heads. I'm about to give them a run for their money, and it's not going to be pretty. I have two choices
1. I could call the districts main office in Sac.
2. Find a advocate to come to the meetings which in my case, is a little too late for that. With that I'm on my own; My only alternative is write them a letter of complaint, asking them to remove my son and finding a school if they don't comply then I will go straight to the top. They have done us wrong for too fucking long and now it's time to either face your mistakes and pay the price. Or as I have said before find him a new school, that will help him more than this one will.
As for youngster going to summer school, it's up in the air again. And it's their fault they know he needs the extra help, they know from the last meeting that they needed to do something. And I get this another, missed meeting because they couldn't get their dates straight. How the hell would they feel, if I didn't show up at those meetings? I'm sure that they wouldn't be happy. I'm sure they would have someone knocking on my door asking me why I haven't attended a meeting with the school. At this time boycotting this meeting is not an option I'm willing to take, at the moment. In all honesty if they cared about my kid then, they shouldn't have left a message on youngsters teachers phone and canceling that morning, knowing all too well it has not been an easy road for us.
Saturday June 10,
One of my favorite things about my job, is I get involved with different activities that they have once in a while. This time is was a 5k walk/run, we had a good turn out we had a few that went home, the weather could have been a little warmer. At least the sun was out, the wind was blowing. And the golfers weren't out at 8:00 a.m. we had full access to the golf course, I got there a little late so both gals that do fitness work were just about done. They had filled me in on the mornings events. They had borrowed a golf cart for the mornings event, which in turn two of the guy's were running after them. Stop you can't take that! As both of them said we work here we'll bring it back as soon as we are done with it. Which we did after picking up the markers that we had used, it was a good day. So what time was the gals there? 5:30 in the morning. I got there about 6:45a.m. I couldn't get moving. At least we had a good time. Exchanged some good laughs and enjoyed the morning.
Sunday June 11,
My usual routine got up for church, had a good morning of sleeping in until 7:30 which is unusual for me. As the morning wore on I found out why the two had canceled the meeting, one was sick the other her mom was in the hospital having surgery. Now I feel really bad, because of the way I just ripped into the school dist. Then I found out who youngest teacher will be a male, that I've never met before. All I know is there better be no backing out of this meeting on Tuesday, as it is they are going to be some words and a lot of not trusting on my part. And maybe a promotion on ch's if the good lord willing, that will mean a possible job transfer. God forbid in the L.A. area, we'll just have to wait and see.
All in all it's been a busy weekend, for the most part it's nice to have a place to vent. And I feel that I've done wrong for getting mad and not knowing all the details. Then again it's one of those areas, where you don't know what to do. Sure I'm displeased with myself, but I know in my heart that there is nothing I can do. Of course the teacher that I talked to, this morning said it's a shame they couldn't say anything the night before. I told her to have a nice week and I would see her on Tuesday at 3:00pm. Not a word did I say that I was planning on having a written report with me, and what I think the school should do. I've spent the last three days on this post. May you all have a good week.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
I've been tagged! This time by Pretty Peanut.
5 items in my fridge
1. Half container of Cranrasberry juice.
2. Leftovers.
3. veggies.
5. Half eaten watermelon and apples.
5 items in my closet.
1. blankets for the winter.
2. Shoes for all seasons and a punch bowl set.
3. books that I have and haven't read.
4. closet organizer
5. Mis. Clothes.
5 items in my car (suv)
1. Massage Table, and a hands free kit that stays in there all the time.
2. Soda cans that Ch, leaves behind after driving my suv.
3. A dirty hand towel for drying my hands, work doesn't supply them.
4. Gum wrappers from the boys, stickers from Walmart left behind from boys.
5. Trolling plate from Ch's dads boat, ended up ordering a new one.
Tagged Hasarder, I'll let her know.
5 items in my fridge
1. Half container of Cranrasberry juice.
2. Leftovers.
3. veggies.
5. Half eaten watermelon and apples.
5 items in my closet.
1. blankets for the winter.
2. Shoes for all seasons and a punch bowl set.
3. books that I have and haven't read.
4. closet organizer
5. Mis. Clothes.
5 items in my car (suv)
1. Massage Table, and a hands free kit that stays in there all the time.
2. Soda cans that Ch, leaves behind after driving my suv.
3. A dirty hand towel for drying my hands, work doesn't supply them.
4. Gum wrappers from the boys, stickers from Walmart left behind from boys.
5. Trolling plate from Ch's dads boat, ended up ordering a new one.
Tagged Hasarder, I'll let her know.
Sick & Stressed
Yes you've read the title right, I'm sick and under a lot of pressure. This past week has been busy, and this is one of those weekends when I really wanted to leave the house take everyone to the ocean. That will not happen, I woke up with a head hurting really bad, it felt like someone stabbing me in the temple, then finding out there isn't enough cash to do much with, which made it worse. Right now I can't handle the sun light or loud noises they don't bother me all that much, but today is one those days I just want it to be very soothing. Everything is off except for the computer and a few reading material that I've got beside me. What a way of spending a beautiful day inside, while the sun is just right for tanning!
I had my oldest IEP meeting on Thursday, if I Ch hadn't remind me to call and make sure the date was right I would have missed it. Sure enough they sent me the wrong date the time was right oh my gosh! Couldn't get the date straight or call me to let me know? What is wrong with teachers!?! Then the principle didn't show up because he had other obligations, knowing late afternoons are the only times we can get together for meetings like this between my work and Ch's. (Speaking of my work it has picked a little more), just in time too. I had one client that same afternoon, luckily they didn't book me another right after that one or I wouldn't have made it to the school. As I was pulling into town the traffic was a little backed up, thank god I only work five mins from home, other wise I would have been late getting to the meeting. I took a short cut getting to the school which the meeting had not started yet. So where was Ch? He was working o.t. the same time as I was getting to the meeting, as he was walking in as we were about to finish up on the goals set for next year.
So why am I not feeling well today? I'm pretty concerned with our oldest and the way he is learning. If there was another option I would take it. Right now there isn't without quitting my job or moving, if I had my way we would in a heart beat pack everything say goodbye to our loved ones and leave. I know easier said than done. Been there, done that, has it help? No! I've pretty much beaten myself up over this taken the hits more than once. When you are dealing with a child that has a mental problem in learning it gets overwhelming at times. He's at a 1st grade second month math level, his reading is now at a mid 2nd grade level. His memory skills have jumped up to a third grade level, he is still two years behind where he should be.
He still has delays in his fine motor skills yet he tries hard in completing the assignments. Now if I could only get him to turn them, in then his grades wouldn't have dropped so drastic. A D in math an F in spelling, because he doesn't turn his homework in like he suppose to. I did have a talk with him over this told him he really needs to start turning things in and not wait until I've got a meeting.
Besides his levels against him, he's a real sweetheart I should have taken a picture and show you's what he did for me today since I'm not feeling all that well. He vacuumed my living room, tried folding clothes. At least he put them in the laundry basket so I'll get to those later. His teacher says the same thing about him, he's a hard worker, willing to learn, and wanting to please. At the same time he's also the butt end, of every awful joke the kids have played on him. We are very concerned about this, as he gets older it's either going to get worse, or it's going to end up hurting someone. Not something a parent wants to hear, we put in a request for a student helper for next year. Since there is only two weeks left of school, it wouldn't do any good now. It's possible it might or it might, not get turned down. We don't know until school starts in late August, I know my parental rights and I will take that in consideration for next year.
Friday came and went, I received a catalogs I'm not naming the company at this time. I don't know if I could in the future for right now I'm just going leave it at that. My S-I-L sent me a catalogs and I called her I wanted to make sure the number that I have in my phone still worked so I dialed it sure enough it's the same. Left a brief message I wasn't sure if she would call me back. She did, we talked explained my situation that we have been having, she said I don't like being the bearer of bad news. I said it can't get any worse then I've been through. She said it's really bad, alright I can handle this, she tells me that my little nephew is having some health issues they are not sure if it's cancer they found three little pea size lumps a long his spine. As she is telling me this I'm starting to cry, he's only 4 yrs old cute as can be, and has arthitis throughout his little body. They almost lost him once when he was about 10 months old. Then again at age 1 this time, they are not sure if he will make it. They almost lost him this past Dec. Fell unconscious, they rushed him to the children hospital there in Salt Lake.
It's one of many turns in life, you think that every thing will work out for the best. And then you get snowballed! They are handling it the best way they know how, they've walked this road before. They were lucky with round one this is round #2 for all of them. My little nephew has his bad days and his good days, he plays and laughs. Gets dirty like any little boy does. Yet there is a sad part that we are not sure about. I've already been informed if he doesn't make it we are to go out there, I'm praying for better days for all of us, we don't need this not now. I've only spent one week with all of them last year. It's not enough time I need more! He's only 4 not ready to leave, then again cancer doesn't care how old you are or what you want to be when you grow up. I told my s-I-l, if she ever needs someone to lean on. I'm only a phone call away if she has to hang up I'll call her right back. I've got her email address I'll be writing encouraging words to her, letting her know that they are not alone. And they don't have to go through this alone, They haven't told the rest of the family I'm the first they have told. Whether or not they tell the rest it's up to them. They don't want any one to feel sorry for them. They are taking it day by day, hour by hour. All I can do is pray for them as they go through this difficult time.
June 4 Sun.
After a goodnights rest I went to church, had to bring youngster home. He was hitting me and just not wanting to listen today. Too many late nights this weekend started on Friday, Saturday, and tonight he's going to bed early. It's not easy when you don't know when or if his moods will stay the same. Many parents would give up break down, and not wanting to deal with a child like mine. For me it's part of being a mom you learn, you make mistakes, take the bad with the good. And you hug your child like there's no tomorrow. Many a nights I've went without sleep, pacing the floors, wondering where I was getting my energy from. I love both of my boys, yet I have a huge heart with my family that's one state away. Right now my heart is with them, while my body is here.
Since we didn't do any thing yesterday, we took a drive along the Delta. There are two seasons to take a drive, like we did today is during summer and fall. On our way home we stopped at our most loved strawberry stand, picked up some fresh picked strawberries yummy! Came home, started on dinner. Event's I'm still not feeling all that great my stomach is still feeling a little on the upset side. Just getting outside whether it be a drive, or a walk it still counts for a good day after all.
As I left a comment somewhere, I've thought about leaving again. With everything going on I'm not sure what to do. Stay or go, continue to write as much as I can. Both of our boys have two weeks left of school. I'm looking forward to both of them going to summer school, I've been told it's for two weeks, I hope the hell not! I'm planning on taking my Wednesday mornings and doing some laps at the pool. Can it get any worse? Dinner is ready I'm not missing out on helping in the kitchen.
I had my oldest IEP meeting on Thursday, if I Ch hadn't remind me to call and make sure the date was right I would have missed it. Sure enough they sent me the wrong date the time was right oh my gosh! Couldn't get the date straight or call me to let me know? What is wrong with teachers!?! Then the principle didn't show up because he had other obligations, knowing late afternoons are the only times we can get together for meetings like this between my work and Ch's. (Speaking of my work it has picked a little more), just in time too. I had one client that same afternoon, luckily they didn't book me another right after that one or I wouldn't have made it to the school. As I was pulling into town the traffic was a little backed up, thank god I only work five mins from home, other wise I would have been late getting to the meeting. I took a short cut getting to the school which the meeting had not started yet. So where was Ch? He was working o.t. the same time as I was getting to the meeting, as he was walking in as we were about to finish up on the goals set for next year.
So why am I not feeling well today? I'm pretty concerned with our oldest and the way he is learning. If there was another option I would take it. Right now there isn't without quitting my job or moving, if I had my way we would in a heart beat pack everything say goodbye to our loved ones and leave. I know easier said than done. Been there, done that, has it help? No! I've pretty much beaten myself up over this taken the hits more than once. When you are dealing with a child that has a mental problem in learning it gets overwhelming at times. He's at a 1st grade second month math level, his reading is now at a mid 2nd grade level. His memory skills have jumped up to a third grade level, he is still two years behind where he should be.
He still has delays in his fine motor skills yet he tries hard in completing the assignments. Now if I could only get him to turn them, in then his grades wouldn't have dropped so drastic. A D in math an F in spelling, because he doesn't turn his homework in like he suppose to. I did have a talk with him over this told him he really needs to start turning things in and not wait until I've got a meeting.
Besides his levels against him, he's a real sweetheart I should have taken a picture and show you's what he did for me today since I'm not feeling all that well. He vacuumed my living room, tried folding clothes. At least he put them in the laundry basket so I'll get to those later. His teacher says the same thing about him, he's a hard worker, willing to learn, and wanting to please. At the same time he's also the butt end, of every awful joke the kids have played on him. We are very concerned about this, as he gets older it's either going to get worse, or it's going to end up hurting someone. Not something a parent wants to hear, we put in a request for a student helper for next year. Since there is only two weeks left of school, it wouldn't do any good now. It's possible it might or it might, not get turned down. We don't know until school starts in late August, I know my parental rights and I will take that in consideration for next year.
Friday came and went, I received a catalogs I'm not naming the company at this time. I don't know if I could in the future for right now I'm just going leave it at that. My S-I-L sent me a catalogs and I called her I wanted to make sure the number that I have in my phone still worked so I dialed it sure enough it's the same. Left a brief message I wasn't sure if she would call me back. She did, we talked explained my situation that we have been having, she said I don't like being the bearer of bad news. I said it can't get any worse then I've been through. She said it's really bad, alright I can handle this, she tells me that my little nephew is having some health issues they are not sure if it's cancer they found three little pea size lumps a long his spine. As she is telling me this I'm starting to cry, he's only 4 yrs old cute as can be, and has arthitis throughout his little body. They almost lost him once when he was about 10 months old. Then again at age 1 this time, they are not sure if he will make it. They almost lost him this past Dec. Fell unconscious, they rushed him to the children hospital there in Salt Lake.
It's one of many turns in life, you think that every thing will work out for the best. And then you get snowballed! They are handling it the best way they know how, they've walked this road before. They were lucky with round one this is round #2 for all of them. My little nephew has his bad days and his good days, he plays and laughs. Gets dirty like any little boy does. Yet there is a sad part that we are not sure about. I've already been informed if he doesn't make it we are to go out there, I'm praying for better days for all of us, we don't need this not now. I've only spent one week with all of them last year. It's not enough time I need more! He's only 4 not ready to leave, then again cancer doesn't care how old you are or what you want to be when you grow up. I told my s-I-l, if she ever needs someone to lean on. I'm only a phone call away if she has to hang up I'll call her right back. I've got her email address I'll be writing encouraging words to her, letting her know that they are not alone. And they don't have to go through this alone, They haven't told the rest of the family I'm the first they have told. Whether or not they tell the rest it's up to them. They don't want any one to feel sorry for them. They are taking it day by day, hour by hour. All I can do is pray for them as they go through this difficult time.
June 4 Sun.
After a goodnights rest I went to church, had to bring youngster home. He was hitting me and just not wanting to listen today. Too many late nights this weekend started on Friday, Saturday, and tonight he's going to bed early. It's not easy when you don't know when or if his moods will stay the same. Many parents would give up break down, and not wanting to deal with a child like mine. For me it's part of being a mom you learn, you make mistakes, take the bad with the good. And you hug your child like there's no tomorrow. Many a nights I've went without sleep, pacing the floors, wondering where I was getting my energy from. I love both of my boys, yet I have a huge heart with my family that's one state away. Right now my heart is with them, while my body is here.
Since we didn't do any thing yesterday, we took a drive along the Delta. There are two seasons to take a drive, like we did today is during summer and fall. On our way home we stopped at our most loved strawberry stand, picked up some fresh picked strawberries yummy! Came home, started on dinner. Event's I'm still not feeling all that great my stomach is still feeling a little on the upset side. Just getting outside whether it be a drive, or a walk it still counts for a good day after all.
As I left a comment somewhere, I've thought about leaving again. With everything going on I'm not sure what to do. Stay or go, continue to write as much as I can. Both of our boys have two weeks left of school. I'm looking forward to both of them going to summer school, I've been told it's for two weeks, I hope the hell not! I'm planning on taking my Wednesday mornings and doing some laps at the pool. Can it get any worse? Dinner is ready I'm not missing out on helping in the kitchen.
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