This Should Be Fun

If any one has heard, CH left for the snow this morning and arrived there about 10:30 a.m. this morning. Sorry it's taken me a while to tell everyone, I really don't know how I'm feeling with him gone, I'm happy at least that's what I'm feeling I have the usual stuff to do the laundry, dishes, the regular stuff that I have do whether he is here or not. CH asked if he could go knowing the risks of his job I realize that his job requires, a good nights rest and training, I also know that he has been a several accidents that require his training if you call shutting down a highway and having people yell at you to reopen it. And he's telling them how to get around. As yeserday would have it he had called me they are calling people for the snow I said sure, hey we've down this road before no problem, he calls me again says he's not sure when he's coming home they're dealing with a tragic accident on the bridge the only bridge that crosses river going out of town toward Sacramento, I don't think people realize that he puts his life on the line. Basically I was getting him ready to go to the snow while he was still at work, the basic stuff like socks and jeans. I washed my suv and rainxed the windshield, got all the trash out back packs, the usual stuff kids will leave behind. By the time CH got home it was about 4:30p.m. I made dinner and he went to the store, realized I missed a meeting for Ricky for kinder next year great! now I will have to wait until August to meet any of the kinder teachers. Our evening together was not the way he wanted to leave, you know it's the best we could do short on notice for me. I know I'm leaving a lot of stuff out from yesterdays road closure I can't say what he saw, getting around town for us locals it's not so bad I pretty much know my way around for those who were not from here. Well they should have found another way instead of speeding down a resident's area, If I wasn't out in the cold washing my suv and watching and hearing what was coming around the corner a truck would have hit a child yesterday. To say the least, I'm just glad it's all over said and done I feel for the families that were involved whether or not they had families elsewhere my heart goes out to them. As for today, I'm feeling a knot in my stomach for some reason this doesn't usually happen when CH is gone for a weekend or working the night shift, for some reason today of all days it just won't go away. He has text me twice today I'm not sure if he will call I know the service is bad in the area where he's working. Lodging we got a break on they have a yard for those who work for the state to sleep and eat at, which will help us in the long run. He's got a camera with him I'm sure as soon as he gets back, and settled he will be sharing pictures. The part I don't like is I don't have much family around for me if I need something, his parents don't live too far. We just never have gotten a long very good, I can walk into a room and light it up, I can't say for his but it's so hard to call on them. His mom is so busy and I won't ask for anything from her. I love it when he's gone except for today, I would much rather be doing something together this weekend but then again we do need the money so I shouldn't be feeling this way. The kids are in good hands I have them we are safe from the storm that has been going on outside, so I'm hoping that this will soon go away. I hope that everyone has a good weekend, and maybe we will hear from CH he's got the laptop with him I don't know if he has enternet access. Fat chance of that happening; the poor guy Yea right!

Tom Boy At Heart

No you didn't just read it wrong it's so true, give me a fishing pole and some warms or any other fish bait I'm there! Except for blood warms and leeches sorry don't go for those! I've had my fair share of being hooked in the finger and lines broken, at least I'll find it fun. And yes I'm also a fan of football in the fall and baseball in the spring, how big? I was pregnant with Ricky and for my birthday I asked to go to a baseball game in Oakland took our oldest with us, CH's mom and grandmother took us it was a lot of fun Sam had never been to a baseball game he found it pretty cool to watch it live instead of at home. We rode bart to and from the game we had a good time too bad CH couldn't be there he was stuck working his dad was too, even though our team lost we still had a good time, the weather was just right not too hot and not too cold and being pregnant I can't remember how many months I was, I do recall a young lady offering her seat to me, and sitting for so long at a ball game I declined I needed to stretch my legs. I also like to watch Indy 500 love Danica Patrick I think that's how you spell her name; I've watched her announces the next up coming show on spike t.v. Yes I watch Spike t.v. my favorites are Trucks with Stacy don't ask me what his last name is they never show it. Then there is another that I like watching it's a team of a guy and gal they build rock crawlers together, I also love watching the Kentucky derby I just hope I'll be home to watch it this year, since I'm working every other weekend. I've had a few laughs at work about driving CH's truck at one time he had a pair of plastic pink balls hanging from underneath I tried to park as far away as possible so no one could see them. I wanted to dive under the cash register I was so embraced over them my co-worker said nice! I'm confused she said isn't that what I think it is? I said yes of cores it was all over I said that's not my truck!! Mine's the suv the blue thing that keeps giving us trouble CH had to take mine shopping one evening with the kids and since his doesn't have a camper shell or enough room for the kids, so he took mine. I have a hard time getting in I'm 5'6 and he's 5'10 now if your short you'll understand where I'm coming from his truck is lifted I mean lifted any more I'll need a step ladder to get in. I have one hand on the wheel and one on the door I'll jump in two feet at a time just to get in. Once in there is no way I can move the seat to reach stirring wheel I've had to drive it now and then when mine was in the shop and it's very uncomfortable it's an old truck not like the seats in mine or a newer one it'll do for what it's worth I find it funny driving it now and then. Not at all comfortable, then again it's his truck made for off roding not for show, there have been a few times I've had heads turn. Once at the stop light I had guy's blow kisses at me not at all cute older men! When I put too much oil episode with my truck I had a guy married and asked is that yours? I said no, it's my husband's mine is an suv I kind of made a mistake and I'm stuck driving his. His comment was you look good in it. Do you take it for what it's used for? Oh this truck oh no; It's my husbands mine is in the shop due out any day. Talk about getting picked up at gas station, I just wanted to get the hell out of there, park his and get mine back! LOL I couldn't believe it I'm not that good looking I mean being tall 12 average gal! You know this usually happens the other way around the gal would say nice ride to a guy, for me I've learned to live with it. Oh yes I've had several looks while driving mine too. I've got Duck Unlimited stickers on the back with one fishing tackle on it and Cali waterfowl on the side windows, most guy's have to look twice to see who is driving and my seat covers are waterfowl camo, they were CH's idea he thought I might like them along with some goose stickers for the side windows. I fell in love with them helped put the seat covers on after the kids went to bed; And the looks I get oh my gosh! I'll be sitting at a stop light or at the store some have questioned me is that yours with the decals on the windows? I said yes. My husband takes our oldest out on some weekends our youngster is wanting to go out with both of them, we'll see maybe next fall depends on the weather this year the birds sucked I'm mean each weekend he would come home with three to four this year hardly any and the one's he did get I made stir fry out of the duck or goose meat which ever I grabbed out of the freezer. It's also really good bar-be-qued, he needs to find a way from keeping the meat from going dry while it's on the bar-be-que. And if CH is working late I'll bar-b-que at times of and yes I've had dinner burn, it's not pretty! I'll through a fit tell CH I'm sorry basically on the edge of crying. He'll be busy doing something and forget or I'll get busy and then remember and sometimes I'll see it smocking and run out there and check on the meat. It's all in good fun, no complaints from either of us in that area. And since both of us have our fishing tags we'll be hitting the water as soon as the weather starts getting better found a few spots yesterday while out not too far from home just got make sure we get there early, there's usually a few cars parked along side the place, it'll be great for a picnic. I'm hoping that we'll spending some weekends up north when I don't have massages and going to a lake that has pretty drive I'll take pics and show you all. I'll wash my own truck CH tried to take it through the mud yesterday I asked are yah washing it he just looked me well it's still dirty I've got to clean it out, and wash it. And rain due in again tonight. I'm ready for some warmer weather but a gradual warmup first not too hot not too cold just as long as I can open some windows to let a breeze in. I'm hoping that you all have a good week and I'll find some more tom boy tales for you to enjoy.

My Dearest Child

My dearest child how I long for the day that
you will not be sent home from school.
How I long for the day you will say mom I'm
sorry for saying I hate you.
How I long to be able not to worry when your
at school that there will be help for you, I pray
for good things to come our way. For one day you
will not have to take awful medinces that someday
this problem will end. I pray that god will lead you in
all things good, this path is so hard and tiring I
feel that peace is far yet close in my heart.
My dearest child god has you in his loving hands each
day, I pray earestly for him to guide you during your time
away from home. To keep you safe and to listen to your teachers
to no avail you have been sent home again.
Lord please take care of our dearest child he is a handful
at times yet, I know you will be there to guide each child of his
own will to be good. In your name I pray Amen.

Not what I had in mind to write today, was bad I had to cancel my first massage appoint. to pick Ricky up from school.

My own Take on Massage Therapy

The last two days have been very intersting to read and *BLUSH* over. I can't get mad over things being said and done. It's part of who I am, I'll hide my disappointment in many different ways, one I'll play one of my favorite music artist I believe she was second on my music list. Or I'll find something else to do, I'm pretty much a person with lots of love and kindness for another person, it's the way I've always been. I'm in no way going to bash Dh, he's been through a lot. One of the most annoying things that MT's will do, I'm no way saying this to hurt anyone who goes and gets massages and I'm not about to down grade myself of doing something like what Dh went to. I'm not the type; I'm very honest about my work I carry my own insurance, table, sheets, creams, music and radio, I've had three clients that have provided me with the music which is cool less stuff for me to worry about. My table alone would cost $600.00 if I didn't go to the school that I had choosen I would have to pay more. I'm not about to have my own husband touch me when I'm doing a massage! Yes he did try to touch me when I had him on my table, he felt the coldness come right back he asked where did I go? My hands hold a very empowering energy, they get very hot very fast it's like holding a lamp between my hands. It's very hard to explain why my hands get so red and tingle at times, I've had it explained to me once when I was in school. As an M.T. I feel blessed that I'm different sure my job can be annoying at times then again what job isn't? Sure I could have done a job in clerical for a company or firm, I didn't feel it as something I really wanted. Most of my family are either nurses or stay at home mom's, me on the other hand wanted to do something totally differnt so my path was lead to Massage Therapy I'm glad I did it. Sure the classes where hard, the nights seemed long, and I hardly spent much time doing much except for homework. My schooling was a way of finding who I was. And what I wanted to do, the experince was breath taking, being in a class of twenty, and most of them were going to school because their parents had enough of them doing nothing. Some like the group of four just wanted to learn and have a feel of what we really meant to do in life. The three days that I went it was a new beginning leaving the old behind to, live and breath as there was no one else in the room just you and the client not realizing you just transformed your hands into releaving pain in someone else's tight muscles. I would have never thought that I would come to realize that there was more to life than just working at a grocery store bagging all the time or being a cashier for the rest of your life sorry. I didn't want to be that kind of person, I've seen what it does to a person it's not pretty. The headechs, attitudes are out ragouse at times. And it seem that my spirit was breaking in differnt areas, I needed to find peace and find myself and where I belonged. If it weren't for massage school I don't know where I would be I'm sure wouldn't be happy as I am right now sure my hours at times can be a pain in the neck. Sure some will call to cancel becuase they aren't feeling well. At least I'm not like my former co-workers in doing something they think that's all that is left for them to do. As I have said in a prevouse post about Massage Therapy the job choose me I didn't chose it, Have I ever question why? this place of work or why? at times do I feel as if I'm not getting enough clients to keep me busy every day that I'm suppose to work. Everytime I thought about going in to do some chair massages I have ended up with massages for the day or for a few days. Not that I don't mind at least promotig myself has worked. We had a health expo for the public there wasn't a real big turn out because there were a few misunderstandings which happens when your new to working out with retired folks. At least I had a good time, passing out brouchers and my buisness cards to those who didn't know or they just didn't read their monthly news letter that they get every month. It's going to take a while I understand that being a massage therapist yes I'll come up against roadblocks or issues such as the one's that DH had done. Do I really care what anyone else thinks or says about the proffession HELL NO! I forgive him for what he had done, I will not hold it against him. It's part of life we live and we learn from our mistakes we take everything someone else will say with a grain of salt. And that is what I have done. There is no way that I'm taking it personally, that wouldn't be fair and as far as I'm concered I'm willing to take any state exam to prove my rights as an L.C.M.T. As CH has said I will not be in the same room with him while someone is working on both of us. Sorry it doesn't work for me, I would feel very uncomfrotable with him in the same room while getting a massage.


As it turns out blogger lost half my post this morning and I've got two kids home one's got a bad cold and the other well it's his day off from school. So I'm just going post on what I have here. And I've been working on this off and on since I've read every post who have had their fair share of talking about the rights and wrongs of massage. I can only talk about the postitive side of Massage, there is no way that I'm willing to go against my eithics that I learned in school, hopefully this will end all the confusion if you want more of what I have to say. You'll have to leave your comments and I will respond it may take a while but I will get to them.
Let there be blessings to those who stop by and may each of you take the time and breath.

Lord I can't take much more.

Basically this post should read Jesus Take The Wheel! Because I can't handle much more. I'm at a loss my day has been spent taking care of clients which is part of my job that I really come to love except... When your trying to get through the security gate and there's about two other cars in front of you and your looking at the time knowing your ten minutes early so you can at least beat the client to the bay ( it's another word for room) it's more polite than calling it something else I can't think of the other word at the top of my head; I'm tired and still fusterated over today's events to even know if it's even worth typing tonight. Ricky had another bout of throwing one of his tempers today usually it's just the two of us at home until a client comes in and needs a massage. Today of all days the weather was still pretty awful and if any one has been watching yes we got pounded again! That's just Cali for yah! We're not all sunshine and happy we get miserable weather just like everyone else...But anyways I took Ricky to the babysitter he didn't do too well I've ended up finding him a new sitter again and calling his doctor again to see what we can do...I'm to the point of needing a freaken punching bag!! Sarah calls me today (not her real name) she's another angle of mine I don't speak of her much she has two kids that have learning disabilities just like I and Ch. She lives on the other side of the bridge. I haven't heard from her in a long time. The last time I saw her was back in January of this year when I had to get Ricky his first dosage, she calls me today for the first time in months we talked for a while she left a message on my voice mail to call as soon as I got her message I call her, she tells me she pulled a muscle in her lower back tells me what the docs. Have done for her put her on muscle relaxers and motrine. As she explains to me how she is feeling where she is hurting, she asks what do you think? I told her you've pulled the sciatica. Do not wait a week to two weeks to see any one that can deal with this as you will read on it gets worse....How in the hell did you do it I asked she said she had taken a real bad fall at work and is on disability, until she and the doctors can figure out what do next. She's not the only one working her husband had foot surgery back in November, December of last year so I know things have been pretty rough for them. I told her that evenings are the best time to get me, right now I've had a pretty full work week between two or three clients during the day. Hardly any time to say I'll drop everything and be right there. Why is it that the one's that are in pain will wait until it gets so bad that they will finally see someone about it? I know I've done it a few time learned my lesson from it but still this is no joking matter if you got something wrong and you know of a good Certified Massage Therapist or know of a good school use it don't wait because it can get worse. She hasn't called me back with an answer yet; I'll call her tomorrow to see what she will do. I've pulled my sciatica it's painful from my lower back into my foot and up my arm, took me forever to walk and to feel no pain. At the time Ricky was about three to six weeks old. He could've been a little older than that... I know is I was in constant pain walking seem to help, at times I just wanted to scream it hurt so bad. My work has taken a strong side at the moment which is good I feel that I need to remember that being able to take breaks from the day's event is helpful. At times like today I feel at a lost our son had acted up today and it's not been the first time and then having to find someone else, which I did my neighbor one house down from us. Like most prayers that seem not get answered this one got answered in a timely matter we needed someone who knows us and our son of course she said she would just let her know when. As of Monday night I've volunteered to hit up the promotions for massage at my work, it's either going to be a lot of computer work, reading or driving back to the school where I graduated from that's why they are there to help us out when we run into projects like this so many prayers that I don't mess this up. I can't believe I did this! So hopefully no more out takes or mishaps I need and want one good year! That's all I'm asking. This post has taken me two days to write I wonder why? Between home work and clients take up much of my time forgot to mention the house work as well. I'm off to doing the laundry and getting Ricky from school. If any one has some ideas for massage just make sure it's in the guidelines of presentable I can't have any that can't work. We've already done a couples massage for Febuary I know Mothers day is a big one I just have to figure out the prices and go from there. I've said enough for the last two days there is a lot to do and not much time early out is today I dislike those days!
We may have good, and bad days
yet, there are angles among us
watching over us.

An update

I took this off of my comment board, Sometimes we don't always have time to go back and read what someone else had written and sometimes comments are made throughout the day when someone is has already done the reading. This was left by CH and I thought this would give everyone an insight to what we're dealing with.

I talked to a coworker today who has a grandchild that was in the same school as our oldest son. He is Autistic. Well his teacher was fired after they transfered him to another school. She would grab the boy and shake him. They would call him stupid in front of the students, and pick on him in the classroom. These were TEACHERS doing this not students.
The teacher was fired and now they are investigating the aid. The parents are also sueing the school. They are actualy a big reason as to why the schools are being investigated by the state. Hopefully this will help everyone that is involved.
CH

The weird part about this is the week before I just came out and said I want to move and I want to move now! I've been contemplating this for a while he even brought it to my attention the only reason why I'm staying in this state is because of my godmother you know for once he is right. I don't want to leave because of her, I want to be close by when something does happen I don't want to deal with different states rules of working and how long you have to take bereavement leave. There is also the house we have to live in it for five years before we can sell, then there is the state job of his the medical is a big concern on his part as well as mine. I feel the longer we wait, I'm afraid that our boys will get farther and farther behind in school. Our oldest is no longer reading, this concerns me very much. I even put in a call to his teacher from last year who might be Ricky's (not his real name) teacher for next year. I know Jared (not his real name) hates going to summer school what else am I suppose to do this is the only two options that we have. I'm also praying that the Lord will show what is best for my family I don't want it to be my wants that is very bad it doesn't always have good results. I've truly seen gods hands in the things I've done he has given me a job that I love with the help of my mother I believe she had a hand in it too. Sure it could pick up very quickly which it is doing slowly but surely; I even filled out a state application for CH only because my handwriting is better than his more readable, go figure knowing my luck he will either get it or not. I'm praying he'll get it maybe then we can afford the help for both boys if not it'll be back to square one again! I'm leaving everything in the Lords hands I'm hoping that CH will realize that he cannot worry over his job it's being dealt with. Every time we get in a fight over my job something good starts happening, it goes to show how much faith that I have and hopefully more good things on the way that way so we can get the extra help for our boys. I have a few more posts that I'm working on. Have a good week and hopefully no more wild weather snow hit the Elderado hills up above Sac today. 18 inchs more in Lake Tahoe wish I was there. :)

Had a Meeting tonight.

I'll have to back up just a wee bit here, last Monday our d's brought home notices from school, letting us know there will be an Parent or Guardian input meeting. Wanting our input about I.E.P's and how's it been since school has started whether or not it's been helpful, or needs improvements. It was a split right down the middle some say it was good, bad and new to having a child in the I.E.P program for those who were new they got a rude wake up call. You can't just sit there and these teachers walk all over you. You have to take stand for what is right and fight for little bit of help! I've been doing I.E.P's since our oldest was in pre-k, and still fighting for the help he needs in reading, math, and speech to say the least we are so low on the funds for the speech therapist no one is willing to come this far for the pay. In the meantime we do have a therapist for the school year whether or not we have one for next year we will have to wait and see, so as the meeting got under way there was only one teacher there as much as I would have every inch of me say what I thought of our ds#2 pre-school there were also some that think she is a good teacher. The only reason why she was there because she has kid's who are needing help through I.E.P's Oh that's right she's the who said our ds#2 needs extra help and what the hell! By this time I was not in a good mood I let them all know up front. It doesn't matter what grade your child is in that I.E.P needs to be followed, it doesn't matter who the teacher was from last year those goals are meant to be followed and not tossed away like yesterday's mail. Many of us were there to express just that, one parent said her child hasn't had the help she's needed since the fourth grade entering high school next fall, another said the teacher gets up on her desk and yells at the students our ds#1 is in her class makes me think should I go visit his class? Any takes? One the rules to I.E.P's is when it is in writing it should be followed our ds#1 hasn't had the help he needs in reading at all this year. I stated that it takes me over ten min. To start homework with him takes me over two hours just to do one page of homework and it has to be in cursive every bit of it, no exception to the rule he has a lower motor skill in writing it's in the I.E.P his teacher also didn't do the reading asesments that were sent to his teacher to do this year another goal setback. Can it get worse? I'm hoping not! As the meeting wore on, some who were new had no idea that the teachers will write the goals and not follow them at all they will say one thing and turn around and skip the whole I.E.P setup. Come to find out the reports were being made right then and there and being sent to School board in Sac. Sometime this week so if we had further things you had better have it out either tonight or in the next week because no one is getting off the hook so easily. I may have a few teachers backs to the walls in the next few months if they have to go in front of the school board, another thing that brought up is why do teachers have to say one thing, and do another it's unfair for any child to be left behind in the school system. Others will say let the teachers handle it! Wrong answer mine is you better be on those teachers like water to a ducks back or you'll be the saying, where the hell did I go wrong!?! Most of us there tonight know how the system works you either start fighting now or end up were most of us are right now. Having the school board walking in with pink slips, I know bad picture when you have to fight like mad and you sit in an I.E.P meeting and having your child's teacher tell you we are not going to use any of the goals sent over here from the previous teacher and your sitting there half yelling at them because they feel they don't have to. All of us there tonight, did bring our concerns front and center and each one was addressed, there were a few things that pissed me off today I get the mail what do you think I found? A speech report the first in three freaken years! It's about damn time someone finally sent me one of those to me. As for other reports such as reading, math haven't seen one of those since last year! Oh by the way report cards are due out shortly three months left of school, I smell a rat somewhere! As for our younger son's teacher she was there tonight the only teacher in the room full of mom's that were pissed off and she had some nerve of showing up only because her child is an I.E.P student so makes you wonder what the hell is really going on! To me this school district is some hot water over not providing for their students. Or someone has finally came forward and called the districts office of special education. Whatever the case may be they've got my support in dealing with the staff, at the elementary and high school. It's getting late I've been up since 6:20 a.m. I've got to get up early tomorrow I've got a client that needs a massage; Right now I just need well wishes and nothing more. Please have a good weekend I'm working on a different post for next week this was nagging to get posted.

Once again Tagged!!

I was tagged by my husband here. List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1. Big Blue Notes - Toby Keith

2. She Didn't Have Time - Terrie Clark

3. Jesus Take The Wheel - Carrie Underwood

4. Your Gonna Be - Reba McEntire

5. I Believe - Brooks N Dunn

6. When It Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts

7. You Are - Sonicflood

And now 7 people
I can only come up with two other people that hasn't been hit yet.

1. Dh you have been tagged! lets see if he will respond to this one ;)

2. catchup0272

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Well the rest have already been tagged by my husband confused.
Sorry this has taken a little longer than expected.
Now I must leave.

HNT Virgin!

Here's my tribute to hnt. A little something that rarely gets shown only to close friends and yes my family knows about it. I've had it for about ten years had to take it out during my last months of my pregnancy with my second child. For those of you who need a little bit of heaven. And no my work has no clue about it which is a good thing they don't allow this kind of stuff as long as I keep it hidden I shouldn't have any problems then again I can always take it out and put it back in at the end of the day. ;)