Even though we had a good weekend, I'm feeling a little down not too much. Just enough to let myself know, I could be feeling a change of sorts. Not sure in what direction it's coming from or how it will effect me in a way of work, we did pray on it last night. On the other hand it could be nothing at all and I'm just being a worrier over nothing. I know writing and talking about it will help, I'm not even sure if I'm ready for another step in the wrong direction, or it could be in the right direction and the good Lord is waiting for the right door, and the timing to be right for me to head in a good direction. Whatever the reason for me feeling this way. Has caused me to take a little break rethink, to refocus on what is important to me. What I'm feeling is very over powering; And the more that I set it on the back burner the more it's pressing me. And this time I cannot let it go, I've been fighting the urge of taking a much needed break; Not in a way that I will leave and not return, but one that will recharge my batteries.
This is my place of putting whatever is on my mind out there, and sometimes I cannot share what I'm feeling because, I'm little nervous on how people react. Some of my writings were a little off the wall, some of them showed a very sexy side of me. I'm glad to have this blog, it's helped in many ways but there is one thing it cannot help me with, and that is the blessings from above. Yet his word is what I've been avoiding lately, for me it's not been very good. I've felt his voice to study his word a little more and hopefully I can be able to recharge, and be able to come back.
Being out of work has not helped much either, I did get my sutures taken out. All of my stitches are the dissolving kind which is a good thing. I'm still swollen, and was told to take easy. That's the other part that is killing my spirit, is not being able to help financially at the moment. I know this will not last long I have about six weeks left and I should be good to go.
In the meantime keep me in your thoughts and prayers, I know this won't last long. And may I find peace and when I'm ready to write out what made feel blue I will let you all know. It's going to take some time on my part to really sort everything out, I do keep a journal, I will most likely pick it up again, and if I feel the need to share, then I will.
May every one's week be full of blessings, love and laughter. I'm off to do some reading and hopefully that will, give myself a much needed lift in my spirits.
Edit: I will comment now and then, to the one's that I do enjoy reading. Just to let every one know that I'm still around.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Sheesh!!
So this is what it's like, to own a FORD. Third trany needs to be sent back to where it was built. Which means I won't get my suv for the weekend, which means I'm miss CHURCH!! And believe me I will not, nor will I own another, FORD in my drive way! I can not wait until I can get a transfer, that is the only way we're going to be able to afford something that is more reliable. For those who owns one glad to hear that yours isn't in the damn shop! If life could throw me another, J needs to have three fillings along with braces, just great one more thing to add to my list of I don't want nor do I need this Shit at the moment!
As for my health I've relapsed last night, my stitches are poking the under side of my arm. And I have until Monday to have them remove, at least I've got that to look forward to. The only income we are getting at the moment is CH's my disability will not kick in until I get back onto my feet and work again. Which won't be until March 19th right now I'm praying really hard, and remembering songs that get me through the tough times.
The pic below is one that I took, C was being cute and thought mom needed a foam bullet on her door. It's a good thing my suv is at the shop, I would like to drown it in the river. Or put a real bullet right, through the engine. Of course my mechanic said that wouldn't do any one any good. So the thought was there.
Edit: This was suppose to be, last nights post. I didn't get done until this morning. #94
As for my health I've relapsed last night, my stitches are poking the under side of my arm. And I have until Monday to have them remove, at least I've got that to look forward to. The only income we are getting at the moment is CH's my disability will not kick in until I get back onto my feet and work again. Which won't be until March 19th right now I'm praying really hard, and remembering songs that get me through the tough times.
The pic below is one that I took, C was being cute and thought mom needed a foam bullet on her door. It's a good thing my suv is at the shop, I would like to drown it in the river. Or put a real bullet right, through the engine. Of course my mechanic said that wouldn't do any one any good. So the thought was there.
Edit: This was suppose to be, last nights post. I didn't get done until this morning. #94
Monday, February 19, 2007
An Eventfull Week
It's been one hell of a week, and I'm so glad that the weekend is hear. I had to pay for my Massage insurance, let me just say that's one hell of an expensive thing to pay on. I went from paying $260.00 down to $199.00 I could have saved more if I had mentioned where I was working to get it lowered even more. Oh well at least I've got insurance. Another expense this week was J's field trip of $225.00 he's going to science camp near S.F. in March. And I'm not driving him either, he will be riding with another parent that is planning on traveling that far. Since those two major bills are paid I can relax a little, maybe until Tuesday, when I take my suv back to the shop after the kids leave for school. The check engine light has been on for over a month and is now has an exhaust leak on the left side. Notice that when I was coming home from work before I had my surgery. Just great!! one more thing to add to the list of screaming bloody murder! As many repairs we've done on this ford, Ch still insists on wanting another. I'm sorry dear but no thanks, it doesn't matter if there is one, sitting at the ford dealer ship with a nice price tag on it.
So last night Ch was being funny, and I took him up on his little joke, and went looking for a new auto. I found two one is a Saturn and one is a Chevy, both aren't bad for the price so I compared it with a Ford, guess what for some reason Fords are a little more than the Chevy and the Saturns.
Even though we aren't quit ready to buy a new one, and with all the repairs that are needing to be done on my suv. I think it's time to throw in the towel and go further into debt. Not exactly what I really want to do. And with no help from the outside what other choice do we have? As for my work I've decided to go ahead and have transfer done. With the same job that I have now, the only difference is the pay $16.50 in the East Bay, compared to $7.50 down here. I think I'll take the long drive, and sit in traffic for 20 mins. So why all of sudden a transfer? My boss called me the day before Valentines, asked how I was doing. Now this is were it gets really interesting. Since I've been gone from work for three weeks, things have changed at my work. My boss is taking a transfer to Rose ville, they are opening another massage place there. She then to tell me that, one of the other gals that works up front will be handling all of my affairs of when I come back. I'm thinking just great! she's giving my medical information, to one of the gals that manages the front and not to the one that owns the building and is the manager.
Oh wait the manager is never there, the clinic has been run by the clinic supervisor. She is the one who gets us every thing that we need, I asked my supervisor what was going on she tells me that she needs a change, and the drive from Sac. to V.V. is too far. Her heart and soul has always been working with places, who hire massage therapist and show them how to dress the client without exposing any part of their body. I'm not a bit surprise, then again any thing she does or says is taken like water off of a ducks back. She asked if I have my medical leave papers I told I could bring it to her. What I should have done was wait until later that afternoon. So I get there and she's in a meeting with some gal. I'm not sure who she is suppose to replace.
Since she was busy, I wanted to see who was working, my co-workers were sitting in the break room so when I opened the door they were sitting there, waiting for their clients to show up. I'm not a bit surprised, so we all start talking on what has been going on at work. Liz (not her real name), said it's nice to see you, we talk about how I was doing. She asked me if I knew about our supervise leaving? I said yes she called me and told me couple of hours ago. What? I thought I was the only one she told it too. Oh really? Now this where the fun begins, she calls me we talked about how work is going she said it's been busy. Liz looks at me kind of surprised, I said what it hasn't been busy, both girls look at each other then at me. Okay what the hell is going on? Because Alisa is leaving and you two know more than I do. So spill it! D.C left because of a transfer to the East Bay which I knew, so after she had left and with my medical leave. Things have gotten out of control, one gal that took the place of D.C. is going back over seas, her husband is going Iraq in the middle of March. So she's leaving the first week of April, going back to Guam.
Another gal that was hired just about the same time as Lilli, she was losing money at her rental space so she quit making $900.00 a month she was losing money while working at M.E. I asked who else is here, and who else is leaving. Liz informs me that a few more are planning on leaving, due to not being paid enough. Liz was asked to clean the carpets, tables and do the dusting so they wouldn't have to hire a cleaning company to come in and do it for us. Liz and Jen came in on the weekends and cleaned after hours. She was being paid by Lisa and Jim, Lisa never paid her on time, kept changing the cleaning worksheets on her. Alisa knew but didn't bother calling Liz about it. Lisa would breach the contract, so Liz told Lisa that she wasn't cleaning any more, and to find someone else. Because Lisa wouldn't get pay on time and Liz had a bounced her rent check, waiting on Lisa and Jim to pay them. That has been a mess. She asked if I wanted to hear more I said sure, I'm up for all the dirt. Well how about taking a seat for the rest, I said sure.
So sitting with my co-workers, Liz tells me that Alisa and Lisa had a falling out, they got into a heated argument over why Alisa was spending so much money on supplies. Because our therapist need lotion, they need clean sheets every day. They have a cleaning company come in and deliver us our clean sheets. And sometimes he is late getting to us. And we are stuck washing and drying the sheets, Lisa still kept whining and complaining on how much was being spent, and how many clients have come in. And so Alisa had enough of their bull shit and said she's out of here, I was shocked that it went as far as a transfer for Alisa I'm happy for her, but there is still the matter of us massage therapist needing more money. So alot of them are leaving, Liz is another one, she's pretty much has another job lined up in Sac. I had a feeling this would happen sooner or later, it doesn't take much to for someone to start something and all hell breaks loose.
Just about the time Liz was about to say something, Alisa walks in with two more massage therapist. I'm sitting there with Liz and Lilli, we look at one another not saying a word. I had seen one of them right before I went on leave and she's hired two more, hell we haven't been able to keep the ones that were hired back in August busy enough. Alisa explained that I will be working four days a week from 9:00 to 3:00 Monday through Thursday. I explained this to Ch he isn't happy at all, I'm still working four days a week. If I'm not busy to stay until 3:00p.m. then I'm sent home. It's not worth working at this place. Now the other place that I want to transfer to. I've talked to D.C. about how she is doing she's busier working in the East Bay she's been busy since the day they opened up. She told me to call them the following day tell them that you work for Alisa and see if you can get over here after your done healing. So I called them the on Wed. they said to bring in a resume and if I personally knew D.C. I said yes I did worked with her in V.V. before her transfer. He said that helps a lot, so we'll see how that goes on the 26 of Feb.
As I'm talking with my co-workers, I asked about another therapist that I had not met. He's gone M.I.A. no one has heard or seen him. He works at the same place as I do and works at the bank during the day. He hasn't called either of his jobs, no one knows where he is at. Liz knows which bank he works at, so she was going to see if they have heard from him because his second job needs to talk to him about his work habits is out of control. Liz said this is not like him to do this, he's very responsible works well with others. And is in tune with those he works with, so this mystery of a missing co-worker has been on the minds of those who know him well. He's been missing for about two months. Hasn't called either one of his jobs, whether he has finally showed up or not I don't know. I went as far as asking if we knew where he lived to see if he is okay? No one knows where he lives which makes it even worse. We all have his phone number they have called it, but there hasn't been any answer. You hear about this kind of stuff on t.v. mind blowing to hear of it in real life. I do hope and pray for his safe return, and if he is really sick that he would have the nerve of calling work.
The last part of this post, was going with C to see Disney On Ice. We all had a good time, C. was so glad that I got the chance to go with him. His teachers got to see a loving mom and son enjoy themselves. We had lunch before we came home, both of us enjoyed having lunch in the warm sunshine. Ch had to work and couldn't come with us, but that was okay. C was so glad that I got to come with him.
So last night Ch was being funny, and I took him up on his little joke, and went looking for a new auto. I found two one is a Saturn and one is a Chevy, both aren't bad for the price so I compared it with a Ford, guess what for some reason Fords are a little more than the Chevy and the Saturns.
Even though we aren't quit ready to buy a new one, and with all the repairs that are needing to be done on my suv. I think it's time to throw in the towel and go further into debt. Not exactly what I really want to do. And with no help from the outside what other choice do we have? As for my work I've decided to go ahead and have transfer done. With the same job that I have now, the only difference is the pay $16.50 in the East Bay, compared to $7.50 down here. I think I'll take the long drive, and sit in traffic for 20 mins. So why all of sudden a transfer? My boss called me the day before Valentines, asked how I was doing. Now this is were it gets really interesting. Since I've been gone from work for three weeks, things have changed at my work. My boss is taking a transfer to Rose ville, they are opening another massage place there. She then to tell me that, one of the other gals that works up front will be handling all of my affairs of when I come back. I'm thinking just great! she's giving my medical information, to one of the gals that manages the front and not to the one that owns the building and is the manager.
Oh wait the manager is never there, the clinic has been run by the clinic supervisor. She is the one who gets us every thing that we need, I asked my supervisor what was going on she tells me that she needs a change, and the drive from Sac. to V.V. is too far. Her heart and soul has always been working with places, who hire massage therapist and show them how to dress the client without exposing any part of their body. I'm not a bit surprise, then again any thing she does or says is taken like water off of a ducks back. She asked if I have my medical leave papers I told I could bring it to her. What I should have done was wait until later that afternoon. So I get there and she's in a meeting with some gal. I'm not sure who she is suppose to replace.
Since she was busy, I wanted to see who was working, my co-workers were sitting in the break room so when I opened the door they were sitting there, waiting for their clients to show up. I'm not a bit surprised, so we all start talking on what has been going on at work. Liz (not her real name), said it's nice to see you, we talk about how I was doing. She asked me if I knew about our supervise leaving? I said yes she called me and told me couple of hours ago. What? I thought I was the only one she told it too. Oh really? Now this where the fun begins, she calls me we talked about how work is going she said it's been busy. Liz looks at me kind of surprised, I said what it hasn't been busy, both girls look at each other then at me. Okay what the hell is going on? Because Alisa is leaving and you two know more than I do. So spill it! D.C left because of a transfer to the East Bay which I knew, so after she had left and with my medical leave. Things have gotten out of control, one gal that took the place of D.C. is going back over seas, her husband is going Iraq in the middle of March. So she's leaving the first week of April, going back to Guam.
Another gal that was hired just about the same time as Lilli, she was losing money at her rental space so she quit making $900.00 a month she was losing money while working at M.E. I asked who else is here, and who else is leaving. Liz informs me that a few more are planning on leaving, due to not being paid enough. Liz was asked to clean the carpets, tables and do the dusting so they wouldn't have to hire a cleaning company to come in and do it for us. Liz and Jen came in on the weekends and cleaned after hours. She was being paid by Lisa and Jim, Lisa never paid her on time, kept changing the cleaning worksheets on her. Alisa knew but didn't bother calling Liz about it. Lisa would breach the contract, so Liz told Lisa that she wasn't cleaning any more, and to find someone else. Because Lisa wouldn't get pay on time and Liz had a bounced her rent check, waiting on Lisa and Jim to pay them. That has been a mess. She asked if I wanted to hear more I said sure, I'm up for all the dirt. Well how about taking a seat for the rest, I said sure.
So sitting with my co-workers, Liz tells me that Alisa and Lisa had a falling out, they got into a heated argument over why Alisa was spending so much money on supplies. Because our therapist need lotion, they need clean sheets every day. They have a cleaning company come in and deliver us our clean sheets. And sometimes he is late getting to us. And we are stuck washing and drying the sheets, Lisa still kept whining and complaining on how much was being spent, and how many clients have come in. And so Alisa had enough of their bull shit and said she's out of here, I was shocked that it went as far as a transfer for Alisa I'm happy for her, but there is still the matter of us massage therapist needing more money. So alot of them are leaving, Liz is another one, she's pretty much has another job lined up in Sac. I had a feeling this would happen sooner or later, it doesn't take much to for someone to start something and all hell breaks loose.
Just about the time Liz was about to say something, Alisa walks in with two more massage therapist. I'm sitting there with Liz and Lilli, we look at one another not saying a word. I had seen one of them right before I went on leave and she's hired two more, hell we haven't been able to keep the ones that were hired back in August busy enough. Alisa explained that I will be working four days a week from 9:00 to 3:00 Monday through Thursday. I explained this to Ch he isn't happy at all, I'm still working four days a week. If I'm not busy to stay until 3:00p.m. then I'm sent home. It's not worth working at this place. Now the other place that I want to transfer to. I've talked to D.C. about how she is doing she's busier working in the East Bay she's been busy since the day they opened up. She told me to call them the following day tell them that you work for Alisa and see if you can get over here after your done healing. So I called them the on Wed. they said to bring in a resume and if I personally knew D.C. I said yes I did worked with her in V.V. before her transfer. He said that helps a lot, so we'll see how that goes on the 26 of Feb.
As I'm talking with my co-workers, I asked about another therapist that I had not met. He's gone M.I.A. no one has heard or seen him. He works at the same place as I do and works at the bank during the day. He hasn't called either of his jobs, no one knows where he is at. Liz knows which bank he works at, so she was going to see if they have heard from him because his second job needs to talk to him about his work habits is out of control. Liz said this is not like him to do this, he's very responsible works well with others. And is in tune with those he works with, so this mystery of a missing co-worker has been on the minds of those who know him well. He's been missing for about two months. Hasn't called either one of his jobs, whether he has finally showed up or not I don't know. I went as far as asking if we knew where he lived to see if he is okay? No one knows where he lives which makes it even worse. We all have his phone number they have called it, but there hasn't been any answer. You hear about this kind of stuff on t.v. mind blowing to hear of it in real life. I do hope and pray for his safe return, and if he is really sick that he would have the nerve of calling work.
The last part of this post, was going with C to see Disney On Ice. We all had a good time, C. was so glad that I got the chance to go with him. His teachers got to see a loving mom and son enjoy themselves. We had lunch before we came home, both of us enjoyed having lunch in the warm sunshine. Ch had to work and couldn't come with us, but that was okay. C was so glad that I got to come with him.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Hearts On Fire (BEWEAR ADULT CONTENT)!!
I'm having one of those moments, if you remember the post that was really, breath taking. Here's another that's over due. And hopefully this will not turn out a rerun of words so bare with me.
We've been working long hours and it's a Friday night, the kids have gone to bed, with out any fuss. And dinner has been done for the night and the dishes have been washed and put away. My scheming, sexy little mind, has been working in over drive. I've wanted you, waited for you. My looks tell you I need you, My body is sending messages of I can't wait to get you to myself. The lights are turned out the candles, light scented vanilla candles burning, the mood of romance is in the air.
I slip into something a little more comfortable, and walk back to the living room where you are sitting on the couch. Half nekked wearing only a pair of boxers. I sit next to you, we both hug and kiss...as our lips meet, your hands move over me, sending chills down my spine. Oh god it feels so good, you move your hands under my sexing robe you notice, I'm not wearing any thing. You softly touch my bare breast, your hand moves from the right to the left. Your hand is greeted by enticing nipples each rising to be touched. Your hand moves lower over my stomach, just above my awakening, you kiss my neck nibble my ears. Whispers of sweet nothings are left in their wake. I sense your growing hard dick, needing wanting to be touched.
My hands roam over your manly nipples caressing, kissing, licking each one. Not missing a beat in your touch. Your dick responding to each others touches, so caring, so loving. As I'm laying in your arms one holding my back while the other is lightly playing with my clit, the softness of my skin under your finger tips, as you play with every part of me. You pull me into your arms, as I softly touch your back, kissing each other, making each of our body parts wanting, needing more. As your fingers trace the outer layer of my soft sweet pussy waiting to be touch, wanting, needing more. You slide your finger into my wet pussy, as I reach to touch your hard dick.
As our bodies respond to more than just a touch, as my mouth takes your dick, tasting your manliness, wanting to feel my tongue along it's shaft. Taking care of each little detail. As your body response to each little movement of my tongue, your
hands roam over each of my bare breasts. Wanting more, yet enjoying every movement of each other's boobies. You whisper it's my turn to lick, and to taste you, as I move from between your legs. As I lie on back,as I feel you, planting little flicks of pleasure onto my lower half. Kissing my inner thighs, taking your mouth softly, licking my outer lips of my pussy. As your fingers softly touch each of my rising nipples, your fingers working to get me wetter, finding it wouldn't be much longer before I would climax to the pleasure of your tounge working on pussy. While my fingers run through your hair, the feeling of each others bodies, wanting needing more.
Moans of pleasure escape my mouth, such a sweet sound to your ears. Oh baby, yes just like that. Licking my wetness feeling your tongue, entering my wet pussy longing for your hardness of dick, to finish me off. Feeling each other's bodies on fire from the pleasure of each lick and kiss, our bodies wanting more. Your hardness is so ready for my wanting wet pussy. The smell of my womanly sent, to taste me on your lips. As we give into one another, pushing your dick into my soft, sweet, wet pussy enjoying the slowness as we ride one another. Not wanting this to end, as we move with each other's pace. As moans of pleasure, escapes each other, the feeling of our bodies as we move together. The climaxing begins, oh yes right there, don't stop as our bodies move to each other's wants, and our needs were being met.
As we lie in each other's arms, hugging and kissing each other good night. Enjoying our hot, love making. Just being able to enjoy, one another body was worth the flirting and kisses during the evening.
Edit: I've been working on this post since the weekend. Sorry it's taken a little longer than expected. I do hope you enjoy this as much as I enjoy writing it.
We've been working long hours and it's a Friday night, the kids have gone to bed, with out any fuss. And dinner has been done for the night and the dishes have been washed and put away. My scheming, sexy little mind, has been working in over drive. I've wanted you, waited for you. My looks tell you I need you, My body is sending messages of I can't wait to get you to myself. The lights are turned out the candles, light scented vanilla candles burning, the mood of romance is in the air.
I slip into something a little more comfortable, and walk back to the living room where you are sitting on the couch. Half nekked wearing only a pair of boxers. I sit next to you, we both hug and kiss...as our lips meet, your hands move over me, sending chills down my spine. Oh god it feels so good, you move your hands under my sexing robe you notice, I'm not wearing any thing. You softly touch my bare breast, your hand moves from the right to the left. Your hand is greeted by enticing nipples each rising to be touched. Your hand moves lower over my stomach, just above my awakening, you kiss my neck nibble my ears. Whispers of sweet nothings are left in their wake. I sense your growing hard dick, needing wanting to be touched.
My hands roam over your manly nipples caressing, kissing, licking each one. Not missing a beat in your touch. Your dick responding to each others touches, so caring, so loving. As I'm laying in your arms one holding my back while the other is lightly playing with my clit, the softness of my skin under your finger tips, as you play with every part of me. You pull me into your arms, as I softly touch your back, kissing each other, making each of our body parts wanting, needing more. As your fingers trace the outer layer of my soft sweet pussy waiting to be touch, wanting, needing more. You slide your finger into my wet pussy, as I reach to touch your hard dick.
As our bodies respond to more than just a touch, as my mouth takes your dick, tasting your manliness, wanting to feel my tongue along it's shaft. Taking care of each little detail. As your body response to each little movement of my tongue, your
hands roam over each of my bare breasts. Wanting more, yet enjoying every movement of each other's boobies. You whisper it's my turn to lick, and to taste you, as I move from between your legs. As I lie on back,as I feel you, planting little flicks of pleasure onto my lower half. Kissing my inner thighs, taking your mouth softly, licking my outer lips of my pussy. As your fingers softly touch each of my rising nipples, your fingers working to get me wetter, finding it wouldn't be much longer before I would climax to the pleasure of your tounge working on pussy. While my fingers run through your hair, the feeling of each others bodies, wanting needing more.
Moans of pleasure escape my mouth, such a sweet sound to your ears. Oh baby, yes just like that. Licking my wetness feeling your tongue, entering my wet pussy longing for your hardness of dick, to finish me off. Feeling each other's bodies on fire from the pleasure of each lick and kiss, our bodies wanting more. Your hardness is so ready for my wanting wet pussy. The smell of my womanly sent, to taste me on your lips. As we give into one another, pushing your dick into my soft, sweet, wet pussy enjoying the slowness as we ride one another. Not wanting this to end, as we move with each other's pace. As moans of pleasure, escapes each other, the feeling of our bodies as we move together. The climaxing begins, oh yes right there, don't stop as our bodies move to each other's wants, and our needs were being met.
As we lie in each other's arms, hugging and kissing each other good night. Enjoying our hot, love making. Just being able to enjoy, one another body was worth the flirting and kisses during the evening.
Edit: I've been working on this post since the weekend. Sorry it's taken a little longer than expected. I do hope you enjoy this as much as I enjoy writing it.
Quick Update
As many have heard I'm doing much better, than I was a few weeks ago. That was until I drove myself around today, and drove out of town to pick up Ch's birthday cake, I did a big NO, NO, I leaned over to put the cake between the seats instead of leaving it on the front seat where I had it to begin with. In other words I've got my right under arm near the stitches inflamed at the moment. I know it wasn't a smart move on my part, and I know it wasn't the brightest move either. I did take a shower to see if that would make the discomfort any less bearable. It did somewhat help, I'll be sleeping on the couch again as well. This morning I found dried blood, underneath my bra padding so I know sleeping in the bed, wasn't helpful either. I tried to get my pillows in a good position then I would fall to the left or to the right, either way I wasn't comfrotable. As much as I enjoy sharing our bed, it's not going to work tonight, too much is at risk like pulling one of my stitches apart that's all we don't need right now. I'm off to do another post.
Every one's prayers have been such a blessing for us, again thank you. Before I forget I did return to my Monday night bible study class it was small just 6 of us. At least things are somewhat getting back to normal.
Every one's prayers have been such a blessing for us, again thank you. Before I forget I did return to my Monday night bible study class it was small just 6 of us. At least things are somewhat getting back to normal.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
So Far So Good
Just wanted to let every one know, that I did go back to the doctors yesterday. Every thing is going well, there is still swelling and burses are slowly starting to fade away. The hard part was actaully having the bandages removed, as I was sitting on the table he had this mirror on the counter, I saw some of the major work that was done. I about passed out on my doctor, as he was taking the gaze off of my stitches. I felt this strange leakage feeling, I took my figure to see why I was feeling strange there was blood on my figure. Freaked me out a little, that is why my doctor had me lie down. He was still concered over the swollen areas in time it will heal.
As for today I'm by myself I did take my first shower, which felt so good so I got a little brave and shaved my legs. Let me just say that wasn't a good idea, I thought for sure I was having that passing out feeling, I know not a good feeling. I washed got out and put my p.j. buttoms on with a light cotten t-shirt.
This my short update for today, after my experince in the shower and having lunch by myself I'm going to have myself a nice nap. There isn't much I can do, I would like to wash the dishes but my body is saying not yet. I really need to work on that. Sheesh!
As for today I'm by myself I did take my first shower, which felt so good so I got a little brave and shaved my legs. Let me just say that wasn't a good idea, I thought for sure I was having that passing out feeling, I know not a good feeling. I washed got out and put my p.j. buttoms on with a light cotten t-shirt.
This my short update for today, after my experince in the shower and having lunch by myself I'm going to have myself a nice nap. There isn't much I can do, I would like to wash the dishes but my body is saying not yet. I really need to work on that. Sheesh!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Big {{{Hugs}}}
I don't think I can go through this a second time, once is enough for all of us. Yes it's taken a toll on my loving husband. I don't think any of us were really ready or prepared for a slow healing process; Some times it's just mind blowing on how much work has to be put into getting laundry done, and the time it takes for your mind to register where you are at. Ch has been amazing, sure I get a little grumpy only because I can not stand being on bed rest, I have never stayed longer than two days in bed. Your talking about someone who is constantly on the move, I can't even begin to understand how Ch can stay in bed longer than I can, as long as it's quiet and J and C aren't fighting over what to whatch or play. Oh yes that has been a chore in a half you think by now the oldest child can keep his little brother occupyed while you take a short nap because you were up before the alarm went off. Talk about a rude awakening, I was so close into throwing a pillow at both of them for the tantrum that both of them went into. Oh my gosh! I thought I had torn my stitches apart after I counted to three, poor Ch he was so miserable looking, coming to my rescue! After both J and C were sent to different rooms one screaming C and J who knew better in picking a fight.
So yesterday was a little more peaceful, we went to breakfast and did some shopping. It was a little chilly not too bad the cold air sure did feel good on my sore tatas, the swelling has gone down a lot since I came home on Wednsday, which is a much better feeling. Here I have been sleeping on a couch while Ch has been enjoying the bed all to himself! As for bathing that has been a chore in a half, I have to wash my body parts seperatly, I have to wash my hair in the kitchen sink, then I go into the bathroom rather neal in the tub which ch has the pleasure of washing me ;) This one chore that I'll be glad to be rid of, I'm sure it's ....umm....well you get the picture! He's done a good job in washing me not to get any water around my bra I have to stay completly dry, no water down or around my stitches. We both have been very careful on hugging one another, he's afraid of making me any more sorer than what I'm already am. I'm just wanting to be able to have full rein of my chore list!
Today has been a lot better things are still slow moving, so this morning I got a little brave and laid down with Ch before he was ready to get up, I do miss being able to lay down with him. As I was checking to see how I was doing underneath my bra area I noticed I must have leaked at some point. I'm sure it's nothing to really worry about I'm to see my doctor tomorrow afternoon, I'm not all that worried I did let ch know about it, he asked if I was okay I said yes. I'm not in any serve pain, I'm hoping it's just the swelling that is going down, and I didn't tear anything while laying next to ch this morning, this is all we both don't need right now.
Here's to BIG HUGS to all my well wishers out there, thank you for all the prayers they have given me so much peace, and courage. To know that there are so many of you pulling for us. I would do the same for any one who is going through a tough time. This kind of plastic surgery is not for every woman, it should be known as the surgery from hell! Because of the healing process and your limited to very short movements. And if your one who likes to be up and doing things, I will warn you be prepared on being very, very, sleepy and sore.
So yesterday was a little more peaceful, we went to breakfast and did some shopping. It was a little chilly not too bad the cold air sure did feel good on my sore tatas, the swelling has gone down a lot since I came home on Wednsday, which is a much better feeling. Here I have been sleeping on a couch while Ch has been enjoying the bed all to himself! As for bathing that has been a chore in a half, I have to wash my body parts seperatly, I have to wash my hair in the kitchen sink, then I go into the bathroom rather neal in the tub which ch has the pleasure of washing me ;) This one chore that I'll be glad to be rid of, I'm sure it's ....umm....well you get the picture! He's done a good job in washing me not to get any water around my bra I have to stay completly dry, no water down or around my stitches. We both have been very careful on hugging one another, he's afraid of making me any more sorer than what I'm already am. I'm just wanting to be able to have full rein of my chore list!
Today has been a lot better things are still slow moving, so this morning I got a little brave and laid down with Ch before he was ready to get up, I do miss being able to lay down with him. As I was checking to see how I was doing underneath my bra area I noticed I must have leaked at some point. I'm sure it's nothing to really worry about I'm to see my doctor tomorrow afternoon, I'm not all that worried I did let ch know about it, he asked if I was okay I said yes. I'm not in any serve pain, I'm hoping it's just the swelling that is going down, and I didn't tear anything while laying next to ch this morning, this is all we both don't need right now.
Here's to BIG HUGS to all my well wishers out there, thank you for all the prayers they have given me so much peace, and courage. To know that there are so many of you pulling for us. I would do the same for any one who is going through a tough time. This kind of plastic surgery is not for every woman, it should be known as the surgery from hell! Because of the healing process and your limited to very short movements. And if your one who likes to be up and doing things, I will warn you be prepared on being very, very, sleepy and sore.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Slow But Steady
Just real quick update, as many of you have heard my surgen, removed 77% of my left breast. He removed all of my fibroids that my other doctor had found, he removed 200 grams more from my left than from my right. Which took longer for me to get out of sugery. In other words no more big tata on left side Yaaa!! I don't have a lot of energy, I have walked around the house a few times to stretch my legs. And my rear end is sore from all the sleeping on the back. No side lining, no fetal position and no I'm not sleeping in the same bed as CH, I tried that it didn't work too well. So the couch in the living room has become my recovery room.
That way I can walk to the bed room, wake CH when I need something and then go back to the living room. It makes for him a little more tired during the day. We're getting by. If my typing is a little off, it's because of all the medication that the doc's put me on. I'm pretty much sleeping off and on during the day, a little bit of t.v. watching, mainly laying flat on my back and resting. I still have the drawings of where my surgen had to make the insitions. He noticed how big my left had gotten after my last visit with him, they were a little concered over my sinus infection that I got a hold of, they were going to pospone it for a second time I said no, I'm phyically fine it's my sinuses that started acting up on Sunday.
Told them I had taken some hot liquid med the night before, about 7:00 p.m. and went straight to bed about 9:00 p.m. I know about the complications that go with colds and being knocked out for a good 2 hours. When I did come to, the nurses and Ch were in the room, some of my nurses knew what they were doing, there were about three that didn't know what they were doing. I had to explain to them what they had to do with the bed how to get me out and put me back in. I had them take my oxigen out of my nose due to the dryness it was causing me, and then my room got too hot, so they opened the blinds and cracked open my door, in order for me to breath better.
I did come home yesterday, and a little bit of a scare today other wise I'm doing fine the nurses made a big mistake yesterday and sent me home in a bra that was too tight for me. Even after my surgens nurse had told them to give me one that the hospital had, and so that is why my doctor had called me today. A bit sore after words came home and rested for a good hour. And now I'm going to wrap this up and say thank you to all of you for the well wishes and prayers. As I have prayed for my surgery and recovery to go very well.
That way I can walk to the bed room, wake CH when I need something and then go back to the living room. It makes for him a little more tired during the day. We're getting by. If my typing is a little off, it's because of all the medication that the doc's put me on. I'm pretty much sleeping off and on during the day, a little bit of t.v. watching, mainly laying flat on my back and resting. I still have the drawings of where my surgen had to make the insitions. He noticed how big my left had gotten after my last visit with him, they were a little concered over my sinus infection that I got a hold of, they were going to pospone it for a second time I said no, I'm phyically fine it's my sinuses that started acting up on Sunday.
Told them I had taken some hot liquid med the night before, about 7:00 p.m. and went straight to bed about 9:00 p.m. I know about the complications that go with colds and being knocked out for a good 2 hours. When I did come to, the nurses and Ch were in the room, some of my nurses knew what they were doing, there were about three that didn't know what they were doing. I had to explain to them what they had to do with the bed how to get me out and put me back in. I had them take my oxigen out of my nose due to the dryness it was causing me, and then my room got too hot, so they opened the blinds and cracked open my door, in order for me to breath better.
I did come home yesterday, and a little bit of a scare today other wise I'm doing fine the nurses made a big mistake yesterday and sent me home in a bra that was too tight for me. Even after my surgens nurse had told them to give me one that the hospital had, and so that is why my doctor had called me today. A bit sore after words came home and rested for a good hour. And now I'm going to wrap this up and say thank you to all of you for the well wishes and prayers. As I have prayed for my surgery and recovery to go very well.
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